Weekly Confession:  Why Do I Keep Getting This Stuff?

Hello, my name is Dixie, and I’m a shopaholic. (Hi, Dixie.)  I’m not your credit card debt, hoards bags and bags from TJ Maxx kind of shopper. I’m more in the keep-getting-stuff-I-already-have category. For example, I have a lot of Isabel Marant black t-shirts. Like, over a dozen a lot. But I still do eBay searches for them, and when they’ll fit I hit that seductive ‘Buy It Now’ button.

I’ve evolved into a strictly flats, sneakers and boots kinda woman. Those man repellent high-top kind of moccasins with faux shearling inside? I have maybe six – brown, lack, really black, leopard. I buy them second-hand on eBay — more Marant, a Saint Laurent and any no-name. (I’m only an occasional label whore.) Boots and booties – I have maybe two dozen pairs. Since I mostly wear jeans and vintage t-shirts these days, my boots are the primary way I can change up my mood.   Don’t fuck with me: the black Junya Watanabes with spikes. Feeling happy and perky: the pink metallic ankles boots. Happy, perky AND don’t fuck with me (most days): Any pair will do.

Why do I do it? Not sure. Is it for the little high you get? Maybe. Is it a weird need to stockpile things so you won’t run out? Definitely. (I have more than one pair of my various favorite shoes, you know, in case.) Is it because I think this one – these boots— will be the ones that put me over the edge, sliding me over the line into okay enough, pretty enough, good enough? I suspect it is.

Anyway, I am ashamed. I’m the poster girl for First World over-indulgence, as well as a prime example of female low-esteem-driven consumerism. I am opting to strive for virtue instead of material elixirs, and the first step to fixing a flaw is confronting it. So…since the only thing I’m more addicted to than online shopping is making lists, here’s my partial list of things I get even though I have way too many already. (I bet you have one too.)

Black cotton t-shirts and tank tops

Red lipsticks (especially Linda Rodin red lipsticks)

Books

British fashion magazines

Tuberose candles

Plaid outerwear

Knock-off Miu Miu faux fur and pearl slides

Second-hand jeans that are too big for me

Second-hand jeans that are too small for me

Tortoiseshell sunglasses

Comfortable bras

1950s cowboy shirts

Chrome Hearts pendants

Parrots

Please let me know your list!

Dixie Laite - Dame Town Writer

Author: Dixie Laite

I'm Sarah "Dixie" Laite -- a writer and branding consultant in New York City. I love classic movies, animals, flea markets, and "Law & Order" re-runs. I live with my husband, 2 dogs and 5 parrots in midtown Manhattan. All my life I've been obsessed with figuring out how to navigate life as a woman. There are endless books, TV shows, gurus, guys, movies and magazines out there to guide you. But now that I'm closing in on 60, I've noticed that the old rules don't apply, and most of the role models aren't old enough. I'm older now. I know more and I weigh more. I want to be inspired and I want to inspire. Let's get a handle on this shit and figure it out together.

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  • Oh Dixie, I am the queen of list making yet, I don’t ever do anything on my list. I make list for groceries and I never grocery shop, things I want, things I need, every time I get my haircut or eyebrows tinted it goes on my list. Every time I go to the doctor my weight goes on the list. I have a list on my phone that goes back seven years ago and Chronicles thought if I was to go on a vacation somewhere warm a list of close to bring and somewhere cold a list of clothes and things to bring.