Things NOT to Say to Someone Who Was Sexually Molested

Everyone knows there are things you do not say when people tell you they were sexually molested as children — things like:

Well, what were you wearing?

That explains a lot.

Big whoop.


But there are others, too.

Twice in my life I brought up to my father that I’d been sexually molested as a child.  The first time I told him  I was in my twenties. I didn’t tell him the secret when I was a child;  my big secret would have made the sky come falling down on this Chicken Little.   I’d been wanting to talk to him about it for a while.  I didn’t want to go into lots of details, to blame anyone, or complain.  I just wanted my daddy to hug me.  Maybe say he loved me, something like that.  I don’t remember what led up to my telling him – I think the subject being repeated sexually molested came up because of a story that has been in the news at the time.  I screwed up my courage and tried  making my confession as causal and non-dramatic as I could.  I remember we were in my studio apartment on Amsterdam Avenue.  I remember what I was wearing.  (He’d asked me to change earlier that day.)  What I don’t remember is what he said.  I do remember that the subject was changed quickly.  I am positive there was no hug.

  1. If your son or daughter tells you about having been sexually molested, make your response something they’ll be able to remember.

Several decades go by.  I mention it to my father a second time.   I was on the phone with my dad.  I was telling him about a medical problem and he made a suggestion.  I told him I couldn’t do what he suggested because of my lingering problems (physical and mental) having to do with ‘down there’.  The conversation went something like this:

“What are you talking about?” he asked, annoyed.

“You know…that thing I told you.”

“I have no idea what the hell you’re talking about.”

“…You know, because of, you know, the sexual abuse thing.”

I know what he said next.  I can point to the exact spot where I was standing.  My father said:

“Are you still harping on that?”

I used to think when people said, “It was like being kicked in the stomach” that it was a sort of dramatic figure of speech.  But it is like that.  I almost slid to the floor.  Luckily, I’ve never actually been kicked or punched in my stomach. Still I’m 100% sure an actual fist or foot could not have hurt worse. 

My dad died about 2 months after that phone call. I loved my father very much, and I was very sad. I still miss my father, and always will. But I confess when he died my grief was not as overwhelming as it might have been; I had already grieved the loss of a daddy that afternoon on the phone.

  1. If your adult daughter refers to consequences of having been sexually abused, don’t act irritated or complain.

I only brought up the sexual molestation to my mother only once.  For years I’d always assumed my mother knew about it.  She’d been in the house when it was going on, and there’d been a kind of unspoken knowing that she knew. It’s a kind of child’s understanding that needs no conversation to confirm it. Not the way you intellectually know something in your brain, but the more intractable way you know something in your bones.  A kind of knowing that comes from silences, not words.  It’s a language of subtle glances and postures maybe only daughters and dogs can read.  That kind of heart knowing somehow just feels truer than the other kind. Anyway, I never said a word. After all, I wasn’t sure exactly what there was to say.  I didn’t know what had been happening.  There were no words for it.   I was a little girl long before terms like ‘sexually molested’ and ‘child abuse’ had become part of the cultural lexicon.  All I knew was that it was scary, it hurt really bad, and that I was the only one to whom this had ever happened.  

Then, when I was about 14 or 15, I saw the TV movie Sybil.  There was a scene that implied utensils had been inserted inside little Sybil’s private parts.  It seemed to me that something akin to what had happened to me had happened at least once before.  (Luckily, I had only one personality.  Not the greatest personality, to be sure, but at least less than two – possibly less than one.)

By the time I was in my 30s the idea that all kinds of children got ‘messed with’ was starting to bubble to society’s surface. Alone, I worked on healing my wounds.  I took a self-defense class, not so much to defend myself but to exorcise some of my insidious feelings of fragility.  Talking about the Krav Maga course with my mom, I talked about my stubborn irrational vulnerabilities and again, tried to causally reference what had happened to me and my genitals as a child.  I’m not sure what I expected. I do know what I wanted: I wanted my mom to take me in her arms.  I wanted us to cry together.  I wanted us to hold hands when we walked down the street.

There was no hug. I don’t remember my mother’s exact words, but I remember she was mad. The gist was that I/me wasn’t the only one these kinds of things happened to, in fact she had been abused by her childhood dentist (apparently he’d been a family friend).  It was very easy to irritate my mother, and here I’d gone and done it again. All my mother seemed to hear was that I was ‘complaining’.  All I heard was that I was ‘harping’.

  1. If your daughter or son tells you they were sexually molested as  children, don’t get angry and defensive. Don’t make it about you.

My mom and dad are gone now.  I loved my parents very much.  Maybe I needed them even more. I know I really needed that hug I never got.




  1. Elizabeth Tr

    Thank you, Dixie Laite, for saying what I have felt.
    A hug was all I ever wanted.

    • Dixie Laite

      Elizabeth, I am so sorry. I am giving you a virtual big, warm, LONG hug…and when I see you in person we will give each other hugs. Friends are family. xox

  2. simone

    this is why i never told my mother. i was afraid of disappointment.

    • Dixie Laite

      Simone, I am so sorry. Have you bee able to heal some? I’m interested to know how you cope.

  3. Tina

    Wrapping you in fierce knowing love, Dixie. Your words are exactly why I never told my mother (who had been divorced from my father when it happened at a distant relatives) and even at 7 I just had the “knowing” that it wasn’t safe to share. And later to never tell her and she passed recently. I never told my mother b/c I had some innate sense )just as your describe) that she had been abused as a child (she was) but I did tell my father, who raised me. After reading “Go Ask Alice” at 13-14 I told my best friend. She laughed and said I made it up b/c of the book we were reading. I told him a year later when his new wife was harassing me about why wasn’t I dating -was I gay? I told him and he was devastated. It’s never been spoken of again. But, I did get a huge hug as my father wept. I think we held each other but I was both numb and crying b/c I’d hurt him. I’m thankful he was mature and had been through enough counseling as a single parent to be able to hold space for me…I’m just realizing as I type that I still carry the weight of that moment of my father’s devastation and at the time it felt like the wrong thing to have done-like “look at what my truth caused my father.” Amazing how deep the training of the patriarchal world goes…the shame/blame. Thank you for sharing. I see you and your strength. Big hugs.

    • Dixie

      Tina, I am so sorry. I wish I could teleport there right now and hug you and pop chocolates in your mouth while we watch bad tv together. You are such a beautiful woman, inside and out. It is such a privilege to know you, and I am so touched and grateful for your kind words. I appreciate them and you more than you can know. Xo

      • Tina

        Thank you, Dixie, You are such a beautiful badass. I can’t thank YOU enough for this brave piece—you shook something new I didn’t know I was holding on to—-you shook it loose for me with this post. Damn woman-you rock! I’m there with you, hearing you, cheering you on, nibbling chocolates and laughing at the bad TV til we snort laugh. The honor is equally mine. Xo

        • Dixie Laite

          Tina, I’m so honored to know you, and soooooo appreciative of your kind words. They mean a LOT. xox

    • Dixie Laite

      Tina, this means so much to me. I am so sorry about your experience. I wish I could hug you from here!

  4. Madelyn Hoffman

    Oh, Dixie…
    Genius of you to bring it to us.

    • Dixi

      Madelyn, you are, as aways, too kind and very thoughtful. THANK YOU.

  5. Barb

    When I told my mom, she said, “I thought something might have happened to you.” I was speechless. I’d expected some warmth, tenderness, even asking about how it had affected my life. It was as if I had told her nothing important. I never talked to her about it again and she never did either. It was devastating at the time. She was the only person I told for many years.

    • DiXie

      Barb, I am so sorry about what you’ve been through, and I completely empathize with how much your mother’s reaction stung. I know, it’s like a kick in the stomach. It’s like being abused all over again. Barb, I’m so very sorry. I wish I could hug you through the Web. Xo. But on the upside, now women like us can tell our stories and ask — no, demand — that we are heard.


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